I try do hard everyday to act like I’m perfectly fine, I’ve even started lying to myself.. But the truth is, I’m terrified and lost and confused and miss you so desperately that I can’t even be honest with myself about how hard this has been for me because I’m so fucking scared that I’m going to fall apart.
Every time I start to think about you I force myself to stop because it hurts so bad. I can’t deal with all of this… Idk what the hell to do..
